Just realized that I havent post any entry for 2015??? Lol then this is my first one after 2015 being real yeah. 2015 means i am 16 and an upperform student which is the starter that everyone say 'markah 40 pun kau bersyukur gila' hahahahah no. I won't make my years like that seriously. Wow me lol. I have this kind of  determination to study hard and smart because getting in baiduri is like you sit on a cliff. It is kinda good school got postponed due to the flood though johor is not involved alhamdulillah ya allah terima kasih, (wait i still not satisfied school start late than usual) some time spared to 'suai kenal' with pure scince subjects. I am stilll doubting myself to carry these things and on the other hand I tried to be certain with this option. They say if you have interest then go on and I don't really think that i have pure likes (what is this vocab error) to the subjects. It is more something like 'I just wanted to study, thats all.' I don't even know what my ambition is. Once was a police but my sight got problem and now my only dream (purely from my heart ehe) is to learn every single thing in this world. Thats it. 

I dont want to think about future and my wish to be kid forever is bigger than everything. As a woman ehem, I also want to get married, have kids and grow old togther but just thinking of it, I felt fear. Literally fear. With world nowadays. Haih.

Lol I got distracted hhahahaha.

So 2015, be nice to me. I have new spirit that boosted me up to go through this year happily, and without any uneccessary negative thought and to fight my fear towards the world hahahahahahah altough i dont have any idea how this year gonna be with new classmates, new teachers, new subjects and new inner self? Sort of hmm. I am anticapting myself hehehe.

It is 2.50 a.m. here therefore i should go to the sleep. 

Bye peeps~